...........LIFE AS WE STAY APART..........

I always have believe to one quotations.............."don't take life too seriously, nobody makes it out alive anyway"..................have always followed and lived and led mah life as nematopores......to simplify....as someone who have never actually cared why and how somethings i did in my life can affect my future.......

.......................well they haven't affected me yet......................but sometimes.....this quotations actually doesn't work............sometimes it seems life is an abyss of darkness....which just has an bottomless ending.......then am actually pissed off with life............i guess i know life hasn't been given for granted by God.......even if life has a responsibility over us............we too have a responsibility over life......

.....................not once or twice not even for 20 times i have felt this.....but it would have been like 5 times a year.....i had this feeling.........

....nothing seems to be at its right position.....nothing seems to be beautiful.........this moment makes me feel as if i have been at a wrong place, at a wrong time, with a wrong person.......in a wrong situation............even being someone with the capability to live doesn't seems luckier to me................

..............i have more often tried to ask the reason about this feeling to my mother........my mom....who even if a magistrate had psychology as one of her subjects....says that...virtue has got lots to do with this...........virtue that i am alone even if am not.....virtue of being wrong at every part of my life while taking any decision.........

....it was today 19th jan 2011.....i had the same feelings.......kaushik was there with me....we were having classes......when i realised am acquiring this grief feeling again.....i left mah class and came back to mah room....and wrote this...blog...though it did no good to my feelings......................

...........but i still believe........."

IF YOU LOOSE HOPE, SOMEMHOW YOU LOOSE THE VITALITY THAT KEEPS LIFE MOVING, YOU LOOSE THAT COURAGE TO BE, THAT QUALITY THAT HELPS YOU GO ON INSPITE OF IT ALL. AND SO TODAY I STILL HAVE A DREAM".........