MIND MAKE AND GIVE MANY CHANCES...


a day i remember when i last touched these keypads making it in mind that i would never be able to write something about my engineering life again...


fortune and God was something i never believed in....


as to why its so..i never gave an answer to any1 about it..nor to mahself....


anyways good thing is am back to my engineering university...and neah not like i got psycho to join back the engg.....just go on cooling myself in this hot weather....so it has been two here and am hell enjoying a lot with my past friends...and new friend too....


haha i always used to have my shardian hostel wimme...so i entered hostel using that...and bang.....my frinds were like WTF!!!!!...fucking shit you cant be here.....

friends were like gone crazy to the surprise visit i gave 'em...a lots i have done these days....

the next night i was inside room.....friends told me to come up and look around for a night walk....i said neah ain't feel like...

then i was busy chatting with a new girl///who, from where, why she......cant say that to you all...she was like umm my counterpart...matching up with my many similarities with her, she made a lust in my mind for her...

obviously she was someone hot and sexy kinda...and umm even frank in behavior...

chatting i guess ended upto the last moment i could just like extend the conversation....LOL...yea i know i was being a dumbass  to do so...haha........but ladki hai...she doesnt mind then hum kyun piche hatte from chatting for long long timee.....

DAYS BACK AT HOME DURING MY MIDTERM HOLIDAYS......

Ummm…..I stayed at nur-house till the 13^th of March'11……thereafter went back to home…….just for 6 days though…..the past enthusiasm of being at home had rather fallen apart somewhere in the past much before I went to hostel………points enough that my childhood’s exuberance has ceased to eventually exist in my soul.......

though i dont remember about now what actually blended my mind at that point of time......but one thing i know is i was never happy with the thing coming apart with my life....loosing of friends and my university...though i have almost adapted myself for this new medical college yet medicine can never take the maths and physics in me...

story with truth obsized....

         .......there was a teenager, living a life like a normal teenager...with all his wits, happiness, laughs, jokes, everything we teenagers use to live our life as yet....its about his 11th grade days...he had a friend...a childhood who was by any anyway true to his friendship......this teenager also had a close friend whom he respected as a sister.....and she in turn loved his best friend secretly.....but she never told about this to her so called brother...might be she was afraid that he might be a barrier between her love and her....no idea why she ever had    such an indifferent feeling for him though he respected her so much.....now this teenager came to know about this by another girl;who is the 2nd main character in the story......with a promise that he wouldn't disclose her name....now by the time his sister was about to propose her feeling to his best friend, this teenager appeared in front of them...which made his sister dumbfounded....she never expected her brother at that moment....getting anger in grief her brother started asking her what was his fault that she never told about her feeling for his best friend....and somehow he mistakenly spoke out the girl's name who told him about this and he broke his promise...as an after-effect that girl stopped talking with him..

            ...it was the day of 7th feb,2009....and something was special about this day for all this 4 characters in the story......on one hand there was a birth of new love relation between his sister and best friend....and on other hand the clash among this teenager and the girl whose name was disclosed....and this enemity continued till july of the same year...after which they started at last started talking to each other...without being aware that what days are coming infront of them....As days passed their small talks turned to all time gossips to a close friendship among them.....their friendship became almost popular in whole of the school even among teachers....this teenager was good in sketching...so as a normal he sketched her portrait too....and as it says"a boy and a girl can never be friends because love comes in between"...this teenager started loving her......which gave their friendship a new turn from his side....even the girl had soft corner for him though she never disclosed//////...it was by the end of november month...she told him"My dad wants me to be with him as he is missing me"(actually her dad used to work at some other town).....this news made this teenager tensed and he disclosed his love for her..3rd dec,09...he proposed her...and there was a birth to another relation on 5th dec when she accepted his proposal..
       
            ..just two days after that 9th dec her father took her with him...but the day she was about to leave this teenager spend all day in her house till she left her home.....on one hand 2 lovers got long span of time to spend their lovely days together and on other hand these 2 lovers just got 2 days to talk as she went away after that...and she wasn't allowed to use her phone when she was with her dad.........they were away from each other for 3 months before they even heard each other's voice....when she returned back to give her exam......and those 6 days of exam they got 5 minutes to talk with each other.....after end of exam he went for his coaching at some other town while she stayed back.....and as yet over again they were out of contacts from each other.....so in 8 months they actually talked with each other just for 10-15 times......once she visited her aunt's home which by chance was in same where he was taking coaching...by fate they met each other while she was walking by the street besides her aunt's home and he was returning back to his room......when they saw each other.....he uttered any words just stared at her with his moaning face...while she wasn't able to control herself and hugged him crying out pain of separation....might be she love him more than anything in this world....

      ..and again they were out of contact as he moved to other state for his further studies and she too to some other state.....it was now when they started talking over phone....generally the boy used delete his messages..but somehow their aniversary message were left undeleted...and his mom saw the message when he returned home during vacation....this teenager could never see her parents hurted in anyway...he even got slap from his mom at the 2nd june....but true that his mom was hurted that he kept such a big secret .....obssessed by his love for his mother he promised that he would cut all his contacts with her...

          ....back to university it was the night of 15 th november when he called her for the last time.....but he never told her the actual reason of ending this relation.....he never gave a reason of this decision....before giving a final goodbye....he promised her one thing from heart....."no matter i will remain a flirter, i won't ever love any girl in the next coming years of my life..and that noone can ever take her place in his heart"......till then none of them have known about each other...whether they are dead or alive nothing at all......

......i shared this story to enlighten a thing how some love get their destiny without any barrier like the one between his sister and best friend and how some love never get their destiny even after millions of sacrifices......where on one hand lovers got to live their dream love..on other hand lovers had to wait for long just to hear each others voice......


...and one more thing my bday is on 2nd june......

.......NOW I fear......

.........i was living a beautiful dream......a dream which had her & her smile & that moment of my eyes lost in that smile.....a dream i longed for since i understood this feeling.....a dream i believed to be beautiful enough to be true......a dream that showed me way of keeping a smile on my smile as and whenever i saw her.....a dream that makes me hesitate from uttering a word when i talk to her and then laughing at myself afterwards when she's gone......a dream i would have always want to be true......

......i fear now.....fear to loose a beautiful dream......fear to loose the sight of that smile forever.....fear to forget a feeling i came across when i saw her.....fear to believe that it's just a dream......fear to be away from a smile of nature......fear to repent on keeping some works undone, keeping some feelings veiled, keeping some words unuttered......

....thats my story...my life...my moments at sharda.....

kehte hain.....

"mil jayein tumhe tumhari mohabaat, toh maan lo Khuda tumpar meherbaan ho gaya...

aur agar na mile to jaan lo ki khuda tumse ek jaan ho gaya........."

........if luck deceives me and my life in anyways....a part of my life in 4 years would continue as i dreamt....else.....as written before i was born ......

....somewhere, someday, with same love and different life and fate.....will see you soon.....

Yipie …..at last I experienced the train ka safar…….

So umm…..starting with the few days earlier excitement I mean that internal nervous kinda excitement that led my days out with lush…:P….

…I can guess it would fun around here as my first journey through train……I mean I hope so…..now am here inside GHY Rajdhani….but far away from my friends’ compartment….hope that people around would be fun to be in………..9:35 am….train haven’t started yet…and am down getting started to bored..wondering what my friends are doing by now…hush**

…..ok now back again with mah friends…phew…atleast this journey ain’t gonna be boring…not yet……hoping that it won’t be boring afterwards too…..now next ohase is if am allowed to have mah B6 meal at B1……………arggg!!!....isn’t successful  with the 2^nd phase with the meal seesion…….but people around at B6 are cool too…except for we kept mump for most the time….but I have started enjoying and coping up with this railway environment……doesn’t seems to be my first train journey…….had a great nap at the afternoon of 8^th march…..now viewing the scenic beauty whatsoever visible from the window……..i guess I entered the crown of the youngster inbuilt in two adults from my hometown when I played some assamese songs at mah laptop….hehe……it was amusing…..

Hey….its a great experience as yet….wow…T.T. versus passengers wo woo……lets see kya hota hain aage///////soon I finished my dinner……meal at rajdhani its amazing…just loved it……

……phew!!!! had a sweet sleep last night…………woke up pretty early next morning……missed the morning tea….. now enjoying with mah friends..photoshoot-out…..:P..

So we reached home by 10pm that night….phew hard day and night it was especially at waiting hall…whatsoever we reached home at last……………..so wait till I write my next blog……….ciao…take care//// 

MEDITATION TRIP TO LOTUS TEMPLE............

..........a decision taken relatively instant than anyone's mind could actually think of..........even if i heard this idea once a week ago at prady's mouth, but merely forgot about that with time.....then in the morning 9am of 12th Feb, Shubham came to mah room and asked if i was in mood of going to Lotus temple....ummmm......i was intended to go some where out of this hostel room more than i was tempted to go to Lotus temple........eventually i turn mahself down and stayed back at hostel along with Rahul and Kaushik who already had visited Lotus temple..........

.....so while every others enjoyed out meditating  at Lotus Temple....LOL............i was bored at my hostel room..........but yeah as usual i did started another sketch........another habitual outcoming of rehabilitation when i have staying alone..........i know the last line was a little much to understand............ok enough about me.......now lets turn around and see how others enjoyed their meditation...hehe............

...........LIFE AS WE STAY APART..........

I always have believe to one quotations.............."don't take life too seriously, nobody makes it out alive anyway"..................have always followed and lived and led mah life as nematopores......to simplify....as someone who have never actually cared why and how somethings i did in my life can affect my future.......

.......................well they haven't affected me yet......................but sometimes.....this quotations actually doesn't work............sometimes it seems life is an abyss of darkness....which just has an bottomless ending.......then am actually pissed off with life............i guess i know life hasn't been given for granted by God.......even if life has a responsibility over us............we too have a responsibility over life......

.....................not once or twice not even for 20 times i have felt this.....but it would have been like 5 times a year.....i had this feeling.........

....nothing seems to be at its right position.....nothing seems to be beautiful.........this moment makes me feel as if i have been at a wrong place, at a wrong time, with a wrong person.......in a wrong situation............even being someone with the capability to live doesn't seems luckier to me................

..............i have more often tried to ask the reason about this feeling to my mother........my mom....who even if a magistrate had psychology as one of her subjects....says that...virtue has got lots to do with this...........virtue that i am alone even if am not.....virtue of being wrong at every part of my life while taking any decision.........

....it was today 19th jan 2011.....i had the same feelings.......kaushik was there with me....we were having classes......when i realised am acquiring this grief feeling again.....i left mah class and came back to mah room....and wrote this...blog...though it did no good to my feelings......................

...........but i still believe........."

IF YOU LOOSE HOPE, SOMEMHOW YOU LOOSE THE VITALITY THAT KEEPS LIFE MOVING, YOU LOOSE THAT COURAGE TO BE, THAT QUALITY THAT HELPS YOU GO ON INSPITE OF IT ALL. AND SO TODAY I STILL HAVE A DREAM".........

31ST DEC.........AND UDIT AND KAUSHIK'S BIRTHDAY BLAST....

..........our endterm exams were over........................31st dec and 1st jan....both special days for all in this world.......+ for us ....its a little special........it says kaushik's and udit's birthday......

................ummm they decided to give a combined party on 31st night.......we all went to the party spot....enjoyed.....aur pait puja bhi kar li.............yummy  too delicious dinner was it...after long exam gap.......

...then it was the last night of 2010 year...........so obviously we needed to enjoy that last night of our outgoing year........udit brought a cake..umm......vanilla with pineapple toppings as per i remember........then slowly it began with a decent cake party........gradually our wildness tempted us to start applying cake as an facial cream at everyone's face...and thus we started the photoshoot of the millennium......                                                                                                                

.......haann(sigh**)////////too tiring but...too enjoying night it..was........anyways.....thats all folks....see ya.....

                       ZOINKS**

........JOURNEY BACK TO SHARDA FROM HOME BY RAJDHANI........

........... well it was time we were to return from home after our midterm break.....almost all came together leaving me......i arrived by flight as they already booked the ticket.......well hard luck for me that i couldn't enjoy...............

  blending wonders from train view

.............so the journey started from Jorhat when Sagneek boarded the train first followed by others from their respective areas.......as i wasnt there may be i wont be able to give quite synonymatic description of their experience ....surely next time am gonna avail this chance......

prady,kaushik,rahul,sagneek

...................as per i remember i arrived hostel a day prior to them......gosh too boring was that dau for me....without any wifi connection.......

......all of them arrived by the next night.......ooh...forgot....sagneek arrived even before i did...LOLzzz......guess how boring it could be for him to be here alone at the whole of the hostel....:P

.....so everyone arrived hostel by 10 pm....ya quite late due to some traffic jam..i guess..........hmmm to hard day it was ...for me to spend the day alone...and for them to have such an hazelled journey continuous for 28 hours....

........THE DEVOTEES OF GOD.........TRIP TO AKSHARDHAM.....

        

..........after termination of our midterm vacation, we returned back to hostel......results were declared........undoubtedly Kaushik rocked his exam.....umm we too did score good %s ....:P

kaushik-shubham-ramit-prady-rahul

prady out.....avi in............ :p

           .................so it was relief to so many days' tensions.................so everyone made a plan of devoting sometime to God by visiting to Akshardham temple............even Avinandan was about to give his birthday party at the same occasion..............

ramit......

prady...cool guy...isn't he??

                                                 shubham n prady..cracking jokes or giving down>>>:P

...........ummmm I guess everyone went leaving me and Sagneek......reason Sagneek had already visited it some day ago..and unfortunately I was an atheist........so everyone were ready to set off for Akshardham by the morning 8 am.......it was a great experience for all.....  

black black ho gaya.....

................hehe...as most of you know that there is high security even before we enter campus of the temple....we cant carry any edible items nor do we can carry any accessories................Ramit forgot to submit his headphone at the cloak room......when he got checked by the security....he was to take out the headphone.....his pocket had many coins in it too.......too his badluck all his coins fell out and spreaded all over the ground he was kinda running after each coin.....

:P

...........ahhh everyone did enjoy lots.....i missed it..

;p.................so as night came everyone were off to hostel after avinandan threw his birthday party.............damn tired......hmmmmmmm....................well am now actually trying to start believing in the Almighty.................

....yyyyyyuuuuuuuuuuummmmmmmmmmyyyyyyyy..........